It`s been almost a month since i graduated. Before i started school i knew it wouldn`t be an easy road for me but what kept me motivated was that i had goals and a perspectives that i was working towards to achieve. One major thing that i learnt was to see difficulty differently and to push through it. After three and a half years of being in Germany, i decided it was time for me to work on having a career. After my son enrolled in Kindergarten, this dream of mine came true. Little did i know what was awaiting me!
Happy Friday Muffins!
I had to learn how to make effective presentations in class. And you all know how your visuals can make or break your presentation. My oh my, only God knows how hard that was! Not only did my grades depended on exams and answering questions in class, but also how creative i was in general. This was something i had never done back when i was in high school. Infact if i remember correctly, the order of the day for us was that the teacher had control over the class. The work of the students was either to write or to listen to what was being taught, unless of course when one was asked a question. Easy right? Well in Germany it is totally the opposite. The teaching system is totally different from what i experienced in Kenya. It`s the students who do most of the research.
I had to work my way up. Not only was the language the biggest challange for me but also FEAR. Fear of Failure and Rejection to be precise! I always thought ,,What if i gave my best and it still wasn`t enough?”. At that point i learnt that this four letter word could handicap and stop me from moving forward! That`s not what i had planned for. It was then that i decided to FACE THE FEAR! It was either that or i had to make a decision to quit school and give up on my dreams. There was no in between. I needed to find out if this fear was true or not.
One thing that i for sure knew was that i couldn’t fight this battle alone. I had faith that God would see me through. And he sure did! The Bible says that Faith without action is death. You can believe and believe but if you don`t put action behind it, it would be of no good. You have to meet God half way! And that`s exactly what i did. My solution was to fight for what i wanted. I can´t forget how late i slept doing research for Projects or Presentations and how early i used to get up to prepare for an exam! You can imagine how hard it is to study in a language that`s not your own! All i want to tell you my lovely readers is that it doesn`t matter the situation you are in. When life gives you lemons, make lemonade out of it. Don`t let fear stand in the way of your progress. What matters is how you embrace the situation.
You know we can`t have victory without a battle. We can`t be overcomers unless there is something to overcome, right? Neither can we have a triumph unless there is a challenge. Life in itself is a challenge my friends. It`s not going to be easy but it is doable. Atleast for me it was worth every sweat, sacrifice and pain. In less than a month i will be starting work :). My main goal right now is to make the rest of my life the best of my life and not get stuck at this point in my life. I want to get past this point in my life because i know on the other side of that fear, of that doubt, of that anxiety is my BREAKTHROUGH… my MILESTONE!
I am not yet where i want to be but i am glad i`m not where i used to be!
What has been your biggest challenges so far this year? I would love to read them on the comment section down below ..
Thank you so much for reading 🙂